Corey Balsamo

Singer-songwriter from New York. Just trying to figure it all out.

I’m painted crimson and blue, she was a ruthless artist.

I am officially home from the first leg of my first tour ever. It didn’t feel long, because it wasn’t long. Yet, everyone is asking questions like I’ve been gone for years and I’m just supposing that shows that they care where the hell I’ve been. Which is great! :)

I missed home. I missed everyone. I find it hard now to say that all I need in this life are my music and my best friends. Aside from not having my family on the road, I noticed I was lacking so much and having some homesick thoughts deep inside. Being on the road helped me realize how much I do love Long Island, no matter how much I’ve bashed it in the past. I missed my bed and my hot bedroom with no AC. But at the same time, I miss open highways and the hotel soirees with my band.

I’m ready to start looking forward to the future. I feel that I’ve been walking on very uneven, uncertain ground lately as a songwriter. Almost like a balance beam or shattered ice across an arctic tundra. I think that it is my mind telling me not that I am unbalanced but more that I am afraid to slip and fall. That is weird, since the last song I wrote was “Don’t Let Me Fall”. I’m going to stop treating my approaching lifestyle as a college student like a curse. Lots of successful and famous people attended college, especially the one I’m going to. I leave in about 18 days but I’m going to keep my head up. I’ve got my best friend as one of my roommates and I really shouldn’t complain about that.

Although I’m looking to the future, I’m going to try and not worry about it too much. I’ve decided that I’m going to live my life in the “now”, day by day. Not the past. Not the future. I’m going to stop worrying about college holding me back in the future and worrying about life ahead on the road as a musician. I’m going to turn the focus off writing about the past. There are some painful and happy memories back there. Right now, they need to stay back there. I’m saving ‘em for another time. “September” was all about my past. “Right now” is about “Corey - now”. I kind of want to be ambiguous about my writing. Not vague, but no specific theme or focus on what I’m writing about collectively. Just write.

Dan Young from This Providence texted me tonight. He wants to hear the “September” EP. I hope he likes it! At the very least, I hope he’ll critique it and give me some good feedback. He is a brilliant songwriter!

So, that’s where I am now in my life. On this day. August 10th, 2009 @ 9:56 PM. I’m going to leave you with a quote from Dan’s blog that I read tonight which I am totally identifying myself with currently.

“It’s good to anticipate things, but not to the point where you neglect to appreciate the here and now.” - Dan Young

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