Corey Balsamo

Singer-songwriter from New York. Just trying to figure it all out.

The new song.

So, for about six months, I had this melody stuck in my head. Literally planted there. And for those six months, to my dismay, I had a horrible case of lyrical writer’s block. Even so, this melody stuck with me. For months and months, I tried to drain lyrics from my dry mind. I got so low and down on myself. I felt like a worthless songwriter. I was, more or less, forcing lyrics out. They had lack of substance and I knew this song needed to be something big and powerful, but most importantly genuine and heartfelt. The feel to this song was so epic. I could have played it in my head a million times and would have never gotten sick of it. It was just too good to pass up. I racked my brain for days asking myself, “What am I going to write this song about?” Then one day last week, it all just came to me.

Several months ago, I fell out of love and found myself dangling at the end of a very long and drawn out relationship that should have ended many months before it actually did. It hurts and it sucks to have to be in that certain position in your life where you cannot even be in the same public vicinity with one particular person that you were once so close to and loved so much because of something that is/was never just one person’s fault. Regardless if the dispute was just between friends or more than that. In my case, it was a romantic relationship. We were both young, immature, stupid and we both got hurt. There’s no doubt about that. Yet, this new song doesn’t necessarily have to do with my past relationship. It is more of a telling of the position I was at in my life during this time, not so long ago, when I felt as if I could never even begin to feel again for someone in that particular way. To my surprise, I met someone. We had a short fling for about a month and it is now over. That doesn’t tear me up inside, though. She is a great person and we had some fun times, without anyone getting hurt. We are still good friends and continue to keep it that way, with no complications. The decision was made to try and not complicate things in the first place, which would avoid risking anyone’s feelings in the event that things would go awry.

I did not write this song about a girl. I wrote this song about me. And for me. It is about my first experience/experiment with love after I felt my heart had been put in a blender and turned on the fastest, most violent spin-mode. I don’t say it in the actual lyrics, but to me this song is that hope that I needed to get back up and keep on keepin’ on. It is currently untitled and it’s going to stay that way until something hits me. I’m so proud to call it mine. 

Okay. I’m sick of typing. I’m really starting to enjoy this blogging stuff. :)

Cor

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