Don’t Be Angry.
“Who’s gonna rescue me from myself if you leave?
Oh, please believe me when I tell you I’m sorry.
You’re everything I need all at once to be at peace,
With the slow dying watching what I love disappearing.
Oh, please believe me when I tell you I’m sorry.”
If you asked me what I would consider my goals in life are, what my life revolves around, what do I strive to make for and of myself, typically, you’d get some flush answer about music and how art makes my world turn - which is true, please don’t misconstrue this. But the truth is that for the last year or so, my life has revolved around one person.
If there is one thing that this Tumblr account allows me to do it is to is let me be completely honest. No bull. Things I can’t can’t write on Facebook or a Twitter post, things I won’t divulge to you from up on stage. Things I may not be able to convey as best as I’d like to be able to when we’re having our heart-to-heart, driving around in my ‘95 Buick LeSabre, drinking Arnold Palmer’s, listening to a Rocky Votolato record.
I’ve learned a great deal about myself in this past year. I’ve made new companions, climbed new heights. I took risks that I was unsure of the outcome. And I felt love’s grace for the second time.
I gave all of myself to this one person. We did so much together. And when we were not together, everything I did was done with her in mind. So what do you do when you’ve given everything to someone who can’t be there anymore?
That’s the question I’m toying with today.
It’s gonna take some time.
- C